Somehow still alive

SO uh, I've kind of been really absent the last month or so and for that I'm sorry. I thought I was coming out of my fog but I kinda...didn't. It's been exhausting and hard and clawing my way out of the hellscape of my brain has been not easy.

I'm not sure I'm coming out of it properly until at least the middle of October, as my birthday always fucks me up, no matter what. I'm doing my best though, so we'll see.

I feel like I have more to say, I don't know what that is though. I'm alive and I'm going to try to be a person more, even if it's only in fits and starts.

Something that is making me happy though. This:



Join the 2019 Halloween Gift Exchange!

I love that it's a thing this year and I wish I thought I could participate bu I don't want to fail and let someone down, so if I can maybe get my brain together, maybe I'll try.

I keep thinking of trying to do something happymaking over the next month but I have no idea what that's going to be. I want to make myself look forward to keeping my head up for my birthday but fuck, it is really hard.

So, if you just wanna leave supportive things, happy thoughts, or whatever, feel free. I am glad you are all here and I hope I can make myself more functional soon.