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[tomakeanoffer]

Wow, I don't know what the FUCK is going on this past month or so but it needs to fucking well stop.


So, our roommate has work,r ight? She was vaguely considering leaving but also was pretty certain she might stick it out until she leaves us next year.

She might have just lost it.

Because, this is how shitty the month has been, her dog may be dying, and she's taking the day off to figure out what to do about it.

Absolutely none of this is helping the survivors' guilt that I'm trying really hard not to let eat me until I just check out.

So uh, yeah. I'm sorry I've not responded to anyone on the other post. I was trying to get my brain together to do that and all of this has happend int the meantime.

So uh, if you wanna help. Paypal and the Patreon I started are ways to help out but seriously, if anyone knows how to banish whatever the fuck is going on, that is also acceptable.

Comments

[dine]

unfortunately I cannot help financial (really wish I could) but I'm thinking of you, and sending all positive thoughts your way.

[tomakeanoffer]

It's okay, seriously. I just...I have zero idea what's going on anymore and I'm not sleeping and yeah, everything is kind of terrible

[sylvanwitch]

I'm sending *hugs* and a little help via PayPal. Also, I'll add you to my sendings. I can't guarantee banishing the negative energy, but I figure the boost of positive can't be a bad thing, right?

[worlds_of_smoke]

I'm so sorry that you're dealing with all that stress. D: I hope things work out in the end. And know that I'm always thinking of you and sending you the best energy I can. ♥

[flybirds]

Dear, nothing of this is your fault, so it cannot be helped by you hurt, or worse.

Sending you all the good wishes, and Ill totally try something banishy.

Love and hugs.

[shadaras]

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[flamingsword]

Survivor guilt is so dumb. Like, when my brother died, I was so convinced that it should have been me. Even though, like, nobody would have made that choice except me? Literally no adult that cared about both of us would have been able to make that kind of choice, but to my brand new trauma, it seemed obvious?

In this culture we all get raised with a baseline of self-hatred to make us more easily manipulable by advertising. And advertisers know that it is unhealthy and makes people kill themselves, but they like to pretend that it is nobody's fault. Even though they almost killed me, and have killed people I know. It's why I dont look at advertising anymore. Nothing on TV, I skip ad pages in magazines, I mute youtube ads. Fuck that entire industry, and our whole unhealthy culture.