hello my old heart, where have you been?

[tomakeanoffer]

So, if you follow fullupwithfire you know things have not been great. Finances are going between bad and worse back to bad and I....Am tired.

Between that and seasonal survivors guilt, which is how I've started describing the feelings around my birthday, I'm just ready for the end of October.

If anyone is inclined, please leave love, happy things, or whatever you feel like. I've been distant and unmoored lately, so reminding myself this is a place I can exist in would be good.

Comments

[alexseanchai]

💗❤🧡💛💚💙💜🖤

[angelofthenorth]

Lots of love and gentleness

[mdlbear]

Gentle hugs

[tamsin]

Keep on hanging in there! *hugs*

Some cool stuff:

2RAUMWOHNUNG - Wir werden sehen

Lego army invades Chalkfestival

Poem: "Far and Fey"

Zupfgeigenhansel - Lomir sich iberbetn (Yiddish Song)

[althea_valara]

Lots of love and hugs to you.

I have two knitted kitties who make me very happy! Here's the first and the second. They sit on my bed, where I spend the majority of my time. I like to give them pats on the head when I pass by them.

Good news

[flamingsword]

Survivors guilt is the suck. I don't know if good news cheers you up like it does to me, so let's do a bit of an experiment.

Ultrasound imaging is about to get 10 times more accurate leading to faster, better, and cheaper medical diagnoses.

Great Pacific Garbage Patch cleanup efforts underway.

Florida bar removes money stapled to walls as decór, donates $15k to Hurricane Dorian relief.

Superpod of possibly 1,000 dolphins swims by Monterey Bay again. Video of first time here.

[dine]

I hope you can find some happier spaces soon

[longmagpieroads]

SO MUCH LOVE.

Also meet Jane's face casting:

[sweet_sparrow]

<3

[wendelah1]

Gosh. You've got a lot to handle, on a good day. Feel better soon. ♥

Here's a poem I like:



"Nurture" by Maxine Kumin



From a documentary on marsupials I learn
that a pillowcase makes a fine
substitute pouch for an orphaned kangaroo.

I am drawn to such dramas of animal rescue.
They are warm in the throat. I suffer, the critic proclaims,
from an overabundance of maternal genes.

Bring me your fallen fledgling, your bummer lamb,
lead the abused, the starvelings, into my barn.
Advise the hunted deer to leap into my corn.

And had there been a wild child—
filthy and fierce as a ferret, he is called
in one nineteenth-century account—

a wild child to love, it is safe to assume,
given my fireside inked with paw prints,
there would have been room.

Think of the language we two, same and not-same,
might have constructed from sign,
scratch, grimace, grunt, vowel:

Laughter our first noun, and our long verb, howl.

If you enjoy poetry, my poetry tag has quite a few posted, once you scroll past the entries that have links to articles about poetry. Wendelah's poetry tag

The first entry is "A Blessing" by James Wright, which I love.

I'm a Libra, too. October 8.

[kaberett]

It is always good to see you.

[shadaras]

<333

this is a playlist I made a few years ago of songs that make me happy. it's very eclectic!

and here is one with songs that are calm to me, though your experience may vary. (as might mine; I'd forgotten I'd even made this!)

[yhlee]

*hugs* thinking of all good things for you.

[sylvanwitch]

First, *hugs* if you consent, and big smiles in any case. Next, I think you're enormously courageous, kind, open-hearted, loving, caring, and warm, and the world needs so much more of each and all of those qualities. Your value is immeasurable. Brightest blessings upon you and yours.

[rhoda_rants]

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[umadoshi]

*hugs gently*

[leiacat]

Sympathy and best wishes.

[flybirds]

Lots of love to you and yours.

and, look it, so many kittens and cats all over the comments of this post... Youre not alone, Kitten. Got so many of yous out there for you, and love.

Playlists of potential happiness

[flamingsword]

In case the good news did not cheer you, I have a Puppies and Video Game Music playlist and a Rescue and Kittens playlist.

[petra]

I didn't see this when you first posted it but I have a whole bushel of affection for you. *hugs*